ethereal clouds-

Gloomy day

2010-03-03T17:58:00.003+08:00

Today I kind of realised what a loser I was. I always comment on people who look noob and have steads, but I never thought that I looked noob myself. What a loser, anyway, got really upset because of Hubert, when I was sitting beside Jiaxin, he kept pushing my chair with both his legs, I moved in front and still, he kept pushing me. I'm not angry, I wanted to cry, yes, I cry a lot. But I controlled my tears because I knew I shouldn't be crying in class, I walked away and kneeled down beside Jiaxin, I think Jiaxin finds me irritating and disgusting? So I didn't dare to speak, but I was thinking of many things as I looked at the screen.

Anyways, at the end of the lesson, I dismissed these unhappy thoughts and ate lunch with Sharon and Jolene which made me forget unhappy things that happened. However aft school, I realised my ezlink card is with Imran and the bus was alr nearing Jp, wasted time travelling to and fro. I went back to class and collected my ws, then, I decided to stay there because I was tired from walking.

But aft that I consulted Jiaqi for homework because I was afraid I couldn't complete them. So I was doing my assignment and suddenly, I remembered the incident when Jiaqi said I looked like a fish. Then, he said Regine told him to comment on my looks and I was about to break down when Jiaxin asked if they think I'm the chioest in 3I, obviously not. And Jiaqi gave the disgusted face and then I felt really sad.

I don't expect him to say I'm chio but he was also not wrong because its a fact. So I quickly made my way home, I did not want to cry in front of them. How could I be affected by comments easily? I controlled my tears but by the time I reached the staircase, I was already crying hard like a loser. Then I called Therena. Thank You Therena, even though I'm angry with you sometimes, you're always there for me.

However, I'm more sad because of what Regine said.

You're always looking for her. What about me? Who am I? So much for sparing a thought for you when I had more friends to go out with. Don't talk to me about this. Face-to-face confrontations don't work that well anymore. Anw, she's more interesting than me right? She has a charming brother (that's what you think) and she's more funny, and fun to go out with.

I read this and could almost break down. It may sound something ok for anyone to accept, but not for me. Anyway, why are you making assumptions out of my mindless comments. Obviously I do not care about Jiaxin's brother, I'm not even shou with him. You were the one who was excited over him at first. And why did you say it like you're sure I think he is charming when sometimes we are discussing and I just passed a random comment like "Yah, he's quite shuai" and "He's nice" or maybe very nice, in my opinion, but that doesn't mean anything, it is also not enough to conclude that I think he is charming. And I go out with Jiaxin more often because we have more common topics to talk about and unlike you, (not sarcastically) she accepts fastfood most of the time, and can chat with me till late hours. Which is different, because if I go out with you, I have to eat Kopitiam food most of the time, and we don't have common topics to talk about and you have to get home before your curfew and peak hours. However, if you still feel that you have more friends to go out with, please go ahead and be with them, please do not care about an outcast cum loser like me. Also, if you think I have not been a good friend, then, I have done my best, probably you forgot that I was always friends with you when Sharon and Therena did not like you for one period of time. Maybe you forgot about these, and if you say I don't care about you then what about you and Hanyu? I suppose the both of you are really good friends and you always talk to him a lot in class and aft school so why are you complaining about me? And when I needed you, were you there? That time I stained my pinafore I didn't know what to do and you left me in the toilet and Therena was the one who rushed to the toilets with a clean pinafore from the GO. Well, I still remember the times you showed your concern for me but most of the time, you only care about yourself and you did not encourage me. Anyways, I wrote these here on my blog because you don't want to me to talk to you about these and this is also a place for me to vent out. I'm not flaming you, in case you think so.

rei: u said he was nice. very nice. and i don't agree with that.

1 Mar 10, 21:50

Angela: I never said Chua Jiaxuan is charming

This proves that I never said he was charming, you don't agree that he is nice doesn't mean that I think he is charming.

Anyway, on the whole, this was a sad day. And this post is not text where aft reading, you can laugh in front of the screen. I post about a sad day or emotions and why are you laughing? Please have a heart, how would you feel if your friend was laughing at your misery? Esp when you were one of my best friends. Anyway, I cannot brace myself up, with all these unhappy thoughts in my mind..

Text is screwed, so please don't think some parts are bigger because I want to emphasise, the text is screwed which is the only reason

I'M BACK

2010-03-01T19:16:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK, ANGELA BONG IS BACK

But I think nobody gives a fuck?

Anyways, I've been having a fairly great time for the past week. I think this would be a very long post so if you get tired at any point of time, feel free to take a rest or leave ^^ I mean it, not sarcastic ohright << (I used this cause its dumb!!) I mean it because I wouldn't want your eyesight to worsen yah, what I kind soul I am! :>

Ok, I'll get along with my post. First, I'll start off with time spent with my grandma. Ok, I learnt to cherish her more and I love her even more now! And and, I went to "Kidz Amaze" Its a playground, for kids (obviously) and amazingly, I was intrigued by it and went in. Played and ran around like a mad dog in the area. Anyways, there were four slides

1. I tried this out the first and it was very winding, but what freaked me out the most was that it winded steeply, it isn't stretched out over a long distance. So after this, I totally didn't dare to try out the slide which spanned five storeys. Anyways, it was two storeys high, I think and because I wasn't prepared for such a thrilling ride, I was shocked, ZOMG :O

2. Tried this out second, I mustered all my courage and thought that I should try out all the slides since I paid sixteen dollars for this. So I went down that slide, (I prepared myself psychologically) and whoosh!! Ok, I slid down and amazingly, I was not dead yet(haha)

3. Third slide, more winding than the first and was nauseous after I came out of the slide

4. Always thought I could go back to the playground after this but end up I have to climb back up the slide, which was freaking tough cause I was wearing shorts and this slide was extra steep at the end (I bet they didn't want stupid kids to climb up the slide from below) but I did cause I think there was no other way out and my legs rubbed hard against the slide which hurt a lot because of friction. In the end I still got to the top :>

All in all, I was tired out after squirming through the small spaces and squeezing and climbing and sliding down and climbing up again. Anyways, there was this uncle who was really lame (==)t I was freaking unhappy and I yelled at him so what happened was there were 'cannons' where you could put foam balls inside to shoot at insect targets hanging down from the ceiling but this uncle insisted to aim and shoot my cousins in their faces.

Can you imagine an old man trying to bully and humiliate kids like this? My cousin was sad because he got hit in the face by balls. (Probably you wouldn't understand how insulting that was) so I screamed at him saying 'Oi Uncle, 你这样大了还做这种东西要不要我上去拿球来丢你?!' I said that because only the people using the cannons above could shoot and the one below couldn't shoot.

He looked damn childish went he pushed the balls into the cannons and aimed at my cousins cheekily. He even laughed out loud when he hit their faces. Please get a life dog, you have kids alr zz So after that bitch heard me he pretended he was fooling around with the balls only but didn't put them in the cannons to shoot, HAHA

Anyways see how ironic the situation is. Angela is playing in the playground like a mad dog VS Girls from my class playing pool at SAFRA which was kinda like socialising cause some guys went too, did I use that word wrongly? And I was reluctant to let my grandmother return to Malaysia (sad)

Today some old guys came to kajiao me again. Please get a life you dogs. I am not here to satisfy your sexual desire or pleasure AND definitely not interested in you. If you happen to have an urge to fuck someone, please make your way to Geylang because there would be women there who would willingly throw themselves upon you. Please do not traumatise girls because this will affect their lives adversely and it also leaves a shadow in their childhood.

I admit that I'm really afraid of guys now. Even though this did not happen for the first time, I get more and more afraid each time. I guess this is why I don't dare to make friends with guys. Everyone has guy friends or even a boyfriend but I do not feel the same. I don't feel comfortable around them and I feel like crying everytime they talk to me. I can almost feel my heart wrench and unknowingly, I will stare at them when they look at me.

Anyway if you old dogs out there want to have sex, I think fucking prostitutes would be a better idea or cut off your dick so you won't feel anything and please you're so old alr, stop thinking about sex lah, live your life in serenity, maybe grab your papers and read them instead of showing off your dick and masturbating in front of me and other girls, I'm really not interested in looking at you masturbating because you either masturbate at home or in front of your wife or any other person who is willing to see

And in any case you think I'm yakking here but don't have the courage to inform the police, I actually attempted to each time but failed due to various unlucky and stupid reasons. So control yourself dogs or vasectomise yourselves, tyvm

Oh yah and to those who always flirt with me, sorry but I'm not interested in you and I'm sure you got the message so stop bothering me. Why are these people bugging me all the time? And all these do not even equate to how freaky the abnormal stalker is, help. I don't wanna wake up at night and start crying again, I hope I won't get a nightmare tonight :< (please please)

Moving on to happy things which happened today

Anyways, YAY I GOT MY LIBRARY CARD. Paid all fines and registered again, hurray!! Today, Jiaxin, Yanning and me went on a treasure hunt. It was an adventurous journey and we had to overcome all the obstacles with a brave and courageous heart and in the end, we made it!! Ok, we were playing outside NLB The Frontier haha, so lame. Before that we were like PIs in the hospital and we did dumb things!! And I played Wii Tennis and Bowling and Jiaxin won me because I everybody distracted me!

Thank You Sharon for not holding it against me. I can't be there always like I did last time to encourage you everytime you cried and thanks, you were the one who egged me on to work hard and now I'm much more determined to do well, thank you!! :>

2010-02-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

Hello, this blog will not be updated until there is someone who allows me to go his/her house to use the computer because I can't change my blogskin using my Macbook and if there is a new blog, I will inform you here here and there might be some changes to the way I post. If you cannot tolerate how I write and express my feeling through my posts, please do not continue reading my new blog because you might end up feeling upset and irritated.

from scratch

2010-02-18T22:14:00.003+08:00

I stared at the bleak prospect of my future with glassy eyes, crestfallen; I had returned with empty hands. A pall of desolation hung in the air, sitting there, wretched and forsaken to solitude, cloistered apart from the buzz of people, confined in my world. Taking a deep breath, I stepped out, plummeting into the pitch-dark trench, diving into sorrow. I have forgotten all about my troubles from time immemorial, and now, it had begun again, starting from scratch.

unhappy

2010-02-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

Hello, I typed out this post about my feelings but fucking Blogger says there's sth wrong with my codes. So, I decided to retype my post short. I will not be blogging for a week so don't bother checking my blog for updates. I miss my grandmother and my family in Malaysia and so I couldn't help but cry when I called her just now. She understands me and always tries to help me. I love my family and I bet I won't love anyone else more than them. I don't want to stay in the house with D alone. I want M to come back from her trip soon though I hate her. I am not motivated to study. I am in no mood to upload CNY pictures. I feel like I'm wasting time in RVHS

joke

2010-02-12T14:49:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zUpbrU4ydw

WATCH THIS NOW and see how no life and dumb some Malaysians can be zz

Still named himself Bobby Gaga HAHAA

Anyway this guy is a joke, LOLL!!!! Jiaxin told me the link, she got it from Jiaqi

Its the CNY song SCs used, haha ^^

51

2010-02-12T14:21:00.001+08:00

Today sucked. I nearly went mad looking for Jiaxin and asking around for news of her, but nobody was bothered zz. Anyway, I skipped the whole programme, prolly stayed there for approx 15 minutes at most, haha. Then went up to classroom with Nicole and clique and Hubert and Brandon. They played the truth and dare game but I wasn't really intrigued by it cause I don't really like these games. Walked around school searching for Jiaxin before and after the programme but to no avail.

I must admit that I felt quite sad and disappointed when I walked to Jurong Point alone. I couldn't help but check my phone for a thousand times. But I'm not angry, it's true. We still can go out next time what. And I think Weini and Yanning are nice for asking me along to pool ^^ Felt touched <:

Anyway thank you Yanning, Michele, Madeleine and Ken for Vday presents ^^ I appreciated your thoughts, not forgetting Therena's yummy baked muffin which was awesome though it was a little too sweet. I painted my nails light pink for CNY, haha, its the first time I painted my nails <:

And, today before I reach school this morning, this small cluster of Sec Two girls were talking real loudly, in the ahlian accent. One girl had this long chained metal necklace with locks and keys hung on her neck and she wore a wrist watch which was also hung loosely(almost gnna slide off her arm), zz, and the design was ah-ma. Then she wore a pasar malam hotpink top with halterneck inside.

Then went to school saw someone weak black stockings, haha. Desperate much == Felt like laughing cause I'm not as despo as them and won't be, haha ^^ Ok, I'm anticipating for tmr <: Too bad there's no internet connection there, might post some pictures aft CNY, this year, I realise I don't miss my family as much alr..

PS I now have five skirts, never thought of wearing skirts in my life last year, AHAHAHA!! <:

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2010-02-11T22:56:00.001+08:00

Jiaqi and Hubert

I found out aft AEM what Jiaqi said about me to Regine. He still pretended to be nice to me though he told her I was a fish face. I don't know who else he said that too, but I'm sure he's not joking since he didn't tell me and told it to someone else. I admit I'd eaten his sweets but that was because many people took his sweets too. He then hinted that 'some people' were selfish and greedy to take his sweets, implying me so I paid him one dollar, if its not enough he could've told me but he actually told me he wasn't referring to me and that I didn't need to pay him back

I also felt hurt by what Hubert said about me and that affected my expository essay. I thought about why and what he said throughout the test and I just couldn't concentrate on sorting out my ideas. I did laugh at him but I didn't say he was ugly. He really had gay actions and expressions so when Jiaqi said sth about him, I laughed. Then he told me to stop laughing and said, "You also not very chio what." I didn't even say I was very chio to him, what fuck.

And once, before I could finish my sentence, he told me that his ex was definitely chioer than me, never said I was chioer than her anyway. He said ugliest girl from Jurongville would look way better than us. We never compared ourselves to them anyway.

PS Jiaqi doesn't feel sorry at all. Nobody can understand what I'm feeling now.

Yip Jia Qi walao, chill man. it was a joke. sorry you couldn't take it.

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2010-02-09T22:56:00.003+08:00

I feel so upset about my mother now, but I want to explain some things I heard..

1)I'm trying to attract attention by making up untrue lies about my mother

Yes, it all sounds so fiction, but I can tell you its true

2)My blog is boring because it's all about my mother

Yes I agree with that, but it's your choice whether or not you want to read my rant about Mum. I know its boring and I already expected my blog to have no readers at all and so, I write here sometimes because there would be nobody to listen if I really needed to rant. I don't need anyone to understand, I just wanna vent out somewhere. I don't have a Mum who waits for you at home with a smile, I'm not like you

3)My blog is not as interesting as Sharon or Therena's blog

I don't know why you're comparing my blog to my friends' blog. If you think their blogs are interesting, go ahead and read them, but I don't think there's a need for comparison. And why would my blog be entertaining to you, I'm not your entertainer and fyi, this blog was just created as a portal to my unhappiness

4)I'm scary and critical

Are you sure you understand me that well? Probably if you go around asking one of my close friends, I'm sure they would give you a different answer

Anyway, I'm feeling unhappy now because of my family and what Shuying said today. Continued laughing through the day after feeling hurt by what people commented about me..

Mad

2010-02-07T23:18:00.000+08:00

I left my orange juice outside a while then Dad poured it away, after that still got scolded by him when I only asked where it went, zz, I study and he came out to scold me again, sorry lor rich kia, you think whole world as rich as you and so free as you to throw things away without asking? This shows how he doesn't want to talk to me, what fuck, I'm so angry and upset now, why can't he just ask me or talk to me directly?! He want ask me if I want eat dinner he also tells M to ask me, why can't he just ask me himself? Birthday present also like that, want go out or not like that like we're really strangers

And he still dare say he was picking up my ends, ZZZ

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2010-02-06T21:16:00.004+08:00

Tutored my cousins, got ten dollars only zz

Anyway, met some 2C people, Paul Chien and Alicia and Ken Yoon at Safra, dunno why they are there though. Some were at BBQ pits and some at bball court. And I was wearing one of my stupid outfits, not glamorous at all == Regretted shouting at Shoufong and Jamie, really dumb, UHH So angry with myself now >:

Anyway ate Jap cuisine and most of them was scallop-based HAHA my dear hotate <: Its named Nihotate sushi because 'ni' in Japanese is two so its 'two scallops' haha, I ate two nihotate sushis, five slices of hotate pizza, hotate pasta and hotate rice which is homemade. M bought Japanese dried food, three packs cost more than forty zz And the seaweed hotate soup is quite bland the hotate strips also >:

I'm worried for my Chemistry test >:

dizzy

2010-02-06T12:58:00.002+08:00

I feel dizzy when I

Look down from heights

In a lift

In a car

Ate or drank peppermint stuff

Wake up in the morning

Drank something cold

Not enough sleep

People are looking at me

After swimming

After drinking milk tea

and more

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2010-02-05T19:24:00.005+08:00

Today was fairly pleasant even though there was some unhappiness. I categorised events into three sections,

Happy

Me and Shuying had fun in class with me being the joke of the day

Was able to teach Shuying Math

Was not as nervous when I talk to guys

Awx seems to be a nice person

Handed in my AEM assignments on time

Ran about three rounds with Jx

Nicole is nice

Understood a little about refraction

Starting to develop passion in Elit

Liked Elit lesson

Cheered up after crying a little

Neutral

Asked Erica about her life story

Did something silly in front of people, actually trying to burn some calories

Awx told me to relax

2.4 timing deproved

Don't know if I'm changing class next year

Did not attend CCA because it was a full-u act, guilty though

Hubert said my voice didnt sound like a guy

Many people like Tonight recently

Unhappy

Was insulted by Jiaqi

Scolded Jiaqi and he was shameless enough to not care

Memorised information about birds, though I realised I could not take part in CIP because of church

I'm worried for my tests

Felt I'm working hard and I haven't seen the fruit of my labour

Don't understand Physics

Hanyu said I should date Awx

I don't like Ruyan

PS Something happened and I'm happy

PPS Something happened and I'm unhappy

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2010-02-03T19:17:00.002+08:00

I just blocked Kh on msn cause I acc hit him there :O I'm feeling so disgusted now I'm about to cry >: Anyway, I went to Jurong Point with Jiaxin and we chatted and walked around aimlessly, Lol And Hubert said I'm uglier than his ex, gosh. And Hanyu nodded I think. Anyway, I failed my Math, such a loser huh. I laid my head on the table about to cry, cause I think I'm working hard for nothing and have never achieved anything in life. But after I thought about it, I decided to work harder than cry, I know I can do it ^^ Yay! (though I know I'll be failing my chemistry and physics paper) Jiayou Angela <:

pretending

2010-02-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

Today I played with Shuying during Math lesson, we were pretending that we wanted to slit ourselves then we had a competition to see who cried first, I didn't cry cause I was holding back my tears, I don't want anybody to think I'm weird and I really wanted to cry >:

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2010-02-02T19:57:00.003+08:00

Qi zi de you huo is making me laugh! All the characters are funny, plus the plot and what they say and Ninuo is a funny name. And Ninuo call his mother then the granny say want xiu li him Lol and more things are funnier LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL Chatted with Sharon about what happened, aha :D

chio cousins

2010-02-02T18:30:00.004+08:00

Was deleting some pictures and came across some photos I took of my cousins during the holidays, here they are the two pretty girls :>

Shanise, she's chioer in real life, looks Malay

Denise, looks a little caucasian in real life

40

2010-02-02T17:53:00.000+08:00

I don't wear the same clothes as my friends, twits like a fucktard, hooks up with a guy and breaks with him 1 day later lying about how he two-timed me and then act emo and slit my wrists and take picture to post on my blog to make people comment about useless shits, and takes pictures of me smiling and giving the peace sign and then add a stupid caption at the bottom saying how much I love my boyf or how much I miss him or Why did he have to hurt me etc. OMG... I feel disgusted even as I am typing out this post man. WHAT IS WRONG WITH SINGAPOREANS?! Why so many people want to become ahbengs/ahlians and think that it's cool huh?!!!Argh I really don't know what to say. Wearing skinnies, weird makeups,layering and rebonding hair, smoking, etc

Adapted from suicidesunda-y.blogspot.com

This is so true zz

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2010-02-02T17:47:00.001+08:00

Hello, I'm here to tell you a got a shock when I went to NCO Raymeo's blog. Yah, Kelly Clarkson's song, it just thundered suddenly zz

Anyway a series of very hilarious events continued to take place one after another, LOL during recess and dance. And Ruyan is so rude today, he called us 'eh' and 'hello'. We have a name for you to address us, not eh, who you think you are, you want eh go eh your mother and I scolded him but this shameless bitch still pretended he didnt hear me scolding him and ignored me. This made me explode when he again said eh,eh,hello. Like wtf, he said that like how many times despite me nicely telling him not to call us that.

Yes Ruyan, I know you were really nice to coordinate the dance for us but why are you losing your patience when we couldn't get what you mean? We never force you to be the dance coordinator in case you dont know, and why were you scolding me when I should be the one to lose my patience- this was him scolding us when we were a little slow in clearing out a space for him to dance >: Anyway, that was really bad of him and I admit that Jiaqi is better than him cause he never said sorry

I'm starting to dislike Khoonhwee too

40

2010-02-01T21:32:00.003+08:00

Haha, so many people are reading Sharon's blog nowadays. Hope they don't come to my blog :<

This is a random post, haha. The petling at Pet Society scared me when it jumped onto Weiwei :O, its just damn freaky and fugly, gosh

quiz

2010-02-01T20:04:00.000+08:00

1. Do you think you're attractive?

No, I don't. I think I look average compared to other girls in my school and I'm not the type guys are interested in, Lol. And I think I don't have inner beauty, not knowledgeable and refined enough :>

2. Do you find guys attractive?

Yes I do, I'm straight though I like looking at pretty girls. I'm trying to stop myself, I removed them from friends at FB, (regretted though)

3. What is your definition of shameless?

I think shameless is a trait in people who think they possess a certain quality when they actually don't

4. What is the prerequisite your boyfriend must equip?

I don't have one, I think I'll be single in RV. Anyway, he should love me deeply

5. Which guy friend do you dislike the most, why?

Yip Jia Qi, he is most inconsiderate, rude, uncivilised, dumb, shameless, violent, uncaring, unfeeling, not chivalrous at all and doesn't learn from his mistakes, much less apologise for them >O

6. Do you like doing homework?

I may be slipshod in work, but once I start working on it, I complete it to my ability

7. Are you happy with your current results?

Not really, I'm trying hard to improve my GPA now ^^ I hope I'll be able to achieve my target GPA :>

8. What are you most unhappy with? (Max 3)

1-I totally abhor people who don't ever admit they are in the wrong and even so, fail to even apologise to the people they offend, I dislike such behaviour because we may commit mistakes in life, but we must learn to accept other people's comments and advice and change ourselves, so that we will stop committing the same mistake again. We should really learn to reflect on ourselves

2-People who think they're in the right. This is quite similar to the first point but its still rather different. I detest people who come up and tell me you're wrong here and there when they're not better off themselves. And they come bossing you around and whatever you say they think is crap cause they think they're knowledgeable so everybody should listen to what they say. Their thinking is ideal and should be followed by everyone, yada yada

There are other kinds of people I dislike but they all fall under the same ranking, haha

9. Do you like cosplayers?

I dislike them ttm, they are wasting their money on costumes and they look far different from the ideal character like please, no life people who imagine they are anime characters or want to be any particular character in the manga/anime plot

10. Do you like your blog?

No, its so boring that I'm wasting time on this quiz though it doesn't help to make my blog more compelling

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2010-02-01T18:15:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Jiaxin! You've been a great friend in the past month! :> I hope we can be good friends in years to come, sorry haven't buy birthday present for you :<

I got A for my HSK exam, 375 points, I'm satisfied with my results because firstly, I didnt read a chinese book last year, until the End-of-Years were over then I read two with shallow language and plot. Also, I didn't really work hard for my Chinese, I did not pay attention during lessons and handed in slapdash work, not including homework I wasn't bothered to complete. However, I failed by half a mark for my LA compre :<

I had to copy the questions of Chemistry practical cause I didnt know must do and so, failed to complete on time. So sian, still have to complete stupid tasks like this :< Had fun with them all, nice people they are ^^ And they are really hilarious!! :>

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2010-01-31T20:02:00.001+08:00

HOHOHO, AM BACK FROM TUITION. I learnt lots of Math, and just now I walked pass the escalator, saw my reflection. This is the third time I think I'm not ugly. I love my hair, my face and outfit today. Did I sound shameless? I JUST SOUND CONFIDENT YO! Haha, I have an excuse to slack in Zong's lesson tmr and I ate KFC with Therena, chatted with Shikai, Lol. And my psychological barrier seems to have faded slightly, but its still there, like I can't stop criticising guys who are friends with me, hafta make an appointment with a psychiatrist seriously zz

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2010-01-31T11:11:00.002+08:00

Aren't you tired of hearing me crap about my mum, yah I think so you do :> Anyway, I'm starting tuition today and I'll ask the teacher if I can change tuition to Saturday for this week cause I'm going out with Sharon! :> I hope I wont screw things up again and I want to buy some dresses for New Year :> Am really excited about the Pet Society updates and am saving up for them ^^ I hope I can use my computer soon so I can use the mystery box trick which I seldom use cause I'm always on my Mac. And I haven't started on my expository essay, I don't think there's more homework left to be done. I feel quite proud of myself, I actually had the courage to go shopping at Bugis without feeling afraid, cause I have an inferior complex, Lol. And my blog is getting really dry and my posts, jejune. Content is boring too, but new people visiting my blog, Yanning, Jiaxin and Elma, LOL :>

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2010-01-25T17:46:00.000+08:00

My aunt and mum apologised to me, I'm feeling better now, I've forgiven my aunt cause she'd treated me well these years, but for Mum, I'll see first. I'll be attending tuition with Therena, VanesaC and T, though its expensive. I hope it really helps to improve my maths if not I'll get angry with myself for splurging money on this. Thanks Therena and Yiheng, and I'm going back to Malaysia for CNY after all

FML

2010-01-24T13:40:00.001+08:00

I WAS GOING TO TAKE A NAP, I SAID IT IN MY DM, AND MY FUCKING MOTHER CAME HOME AND SCREWED MY DAY, NOW, I'M SICK, I CAN'T BREATHE, I CAN'T REST AND WORST OF ALL, I HAVE TO LISTEN TO HER SCOLD ME. NOW SHE'S TELLING MY AUNT ABOUT ME AGAIN AND MY AUNT ACTUALLY BELIEVES, THANK GOODNESS I DIDNT FORGIVE THAT BITCH OR ELSE I WOULD'VE HATED MYSELF FOR IT

I was lying on the sofa, falling asleep cause I'm really really sick. Then, my mum came home. I alr told her I was going to see the doctor ltr, when she called me five minutes ago. But she still asked me if I wanted to see the doctor and asked some fcking crap when she knew I had and wanted to see a doctor. And so I told her of course, I had to see a doctor. And then she asked me where I want to see a doctor and of course I'll go somewhere near, why would I go to Pasir Ris to see a fcking doctor and she kept asking me crap questions when she knew I couldnt breathe, then I said the Pioneer MRT doctor and she asked me why I want to see the doctor, wtf. She is asking so many questions. She alr knew that from yesterday, I was couldnt breathe and I was having a fever. And last night, I woke up thrice and coughed continuously in the toilet, I was going to have an asthma attack. I alr told her last night I couldnt breathe for like how many times and she still come ask me why I want see a doctor.

Then I said, nvm I dont want to see a doctor alr and she take my phone and call my aunt to complain about me. She say I always have mood swings and I'm mad, look who's talking. And she say I always throws tantrums, HOW WILL I NOT THROW TANTRUMS WHEN I CANNOT EVEN BREATHE AND YOU STILL ASK ME FUCKING CRAP QUESTIONS AND I STILL HAVE TO REPEAT MY ANSWERS

Then they both badmouthed me and I left the room, then after crying outside, I listened to their convo at the door, my mother still say she dunno whats wrong with me, then I opened the door and asked her why she badmouth me, she still dare deny you know, that shameless bitch, then she say there is no reason why she want to badmouth me and after that I repeated what I heard then she say of course I say that lah, you always throw tantrums! After that I call my cousin, I thought she was the last person in this whole world who could understand my situation but she didnt believe me, ok, I'm really sad and sick now, I dont know what to do and I havent finished my hw, if I wasnt a christian, I would've ended my life years ago, but now I find no meaning to live now and after my cousin sounded so sian when I called her, I started crying hard and I cant stop

You probably dont understand my situation and what the fuck I'm saying here, but if I could I want to die so that they will regret doing this to me

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2010-01-24T11:40:00.000+08:00

My cousin is mad

haze chun says: (11:28:27 AM)

I really really bored.

Angela says: (11:28:34 AM)

i also

haze chun says: (11:28:46 AM)

I hate my liyer family.

Angela says: (11:28:53 AM)

what?

haze chun says: (11:29:13 AM)

They always lie to me.

haze chun says: (11:29:14 AM)

I hate them.\

haze chun says: (11:29:22 AM)

Angela says: (11:29:30 AM)

what is liyer?

haze chun says: (11:29:55 AM)

Lyer*

Angela says: (11:30:03 AM)

liar*

haze chun says: (11:30:54 AM)

I even hate my like to lie people Lai Wai Chan.

haze chun says: (11:31:56 AM)

You always won't stop playing Pet Scoiety!!!:@

Angela says: (11:32:36 AM)

i dunno what you saying

haze chun says: (11:32:38 AM)

Bye bye(Forever!!!)!!!!!!!!!!!

Angela says: (11:32:44 AM)

who is lai wai chan?

haze chun says: (11:33:22 AM)

haze chun says: (11:33:47 AM)

WILL YOU SHUY UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE???!!!

haze chun says: (11:34:13 AM)

LAI WAI CHAN IS THAT LIAR LA!!!!!!!!!!

haze chun says: (11:34:28 AM)

NOW SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not only this, she always come tell me she bored, then I reply then she'll say don't bother me, I'm playing SDO. I dont know what is SDO she keep telling me to play, I say I only play Pet Society and I'm not interested in other games but she'll still ask me to play other games, cousin=annoying

rejection

2010-01-24T11:01:00.001+08:00

Dad just asked me if I wanted to go out, I rejected his offer. Well, there are many reasons. I am sick and if I can't even breathe properly when I'm sitting down, how can I go out and walk around without getting out of breath? And maybe because we hadn't gone out for like how many years, when he suddenly wanted to me to go out with them as a family, I just think it's weird, maybe because we've all gotten farther from one another. Also, if I go out with my mum again, I'm sure we'll argue so I just gave up on the thought of a happy family outing. Dad looked disappointed though he said "It's ok"

Yesterday, my aunt asked me out also. Probably because she knew I was unhappy with her, seems like ignoring them all for three days really worked. Mum treats me better, but I ignore her cause I won't trust her anymore, dunno what she's up to the next moment. And I haven't forgiven them both, my aunt and my mum, so I spent the weekend at home playing Pet Society and sleeping. This feeling's weird though, cause every friday I'll stay overnight at my aunt's house and Saturday, attend church service and Sunday, I'll go out with them. It'd been a continuous routine that hadn't changed for years. And I haven't called my grandmother for three weeks, seems like I'm not so attached to them alr.

This might be a good thing. For all these years, I've been clinging onto them like an idiot, thinking that we could make the best family. So, in the end, I end up upset when they do things to hurt me. I can only say I've been an idiot for years and I can only wallow in misery for wasting time with them. So what if I love them so much, I can't expect them to reciprocate the same to me.

PS Dad bought lots of tidbits for me, but they were all goodies he thought were nice at his age, eg, haw candy balls, sugary gummies, orange carbonated water, sour plums in paper packaging, I really appreciate his thought, I was touched even, though I didnt really want to eat them. Mum cooked one of her bland soups, but I have no idea whether she really meant it.

31

2010-01-24T09:40:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so sick I can't get out of bed, but I'm so addicted to the Internet, I had to turn on my computer. I thought my asthma condition was getting better, but I was getting worse. I hope I'll get well before tmr, I havent completed my assignments though.

And, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA, thanks for being such a great friend. Thanks for listening to my troubles, thanks for caring and understanding, thanks for chatting with me, thanks for going out with me, I really had fun with you and I know I won't forget you. Though I've not been close friends with you and I've not been a good friend either, I hope we can still remain friends. I hope you'll be happy and excel in your studies and ballet ;D

30

2010-01-21T17:22:00.000+08:00

Feeling a little better, but just feeling quite upset because nobody would ever understand what I'm going through now..

breakdown

2010-01-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

I post here, but do you care?

I write what is true, but do you believe?

If you dont trust me enough to know I'm telling the truth, then you can leave now because I'm going to say things that you might deem as lies, today was a really bad day for me. Ok, I am very sad now and I dont know how to continue. Yes, I seem strong, I seem brave, I seem happy, but are you sure this is the real me you see everyday? Well, you might be thinking 'Lol, is she trying to act pitiful and wait for someone to ask her what happened?' This might be flashing across your mind, but this would be how you feel when everything in your life is right, nothing'd ever gone wrong. But have you considered what I'm going through now, someone who has achieved nothing in life, has no one there to care for her and a person who doesnt have someone to confide in? I will end here because I cant stop crying as I'm writing this, yes, I'm acting pitiful again, sorry

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2010-01-19T19:43:00.000+08:00

To A who has forgotten how to smile but only puts on a smile, cheer up ^^ still love you lots

To B whom I've known for a long time, saw me but didnt cast even a glance at me when I waved, I know that you have many friends, good at socialising huh, but you dont give a fuck about those who are not as popular, I know I can never trust that friendships will last, but I hoped so

To C, thanks for understanding me, I've never felt so relieved, love you and miss you too :> Dont know what to buy for your birthday D:

27

2010-01-18T19:37:00.000+08:00

Yay, I'm very happy today ;D

I finally got an understanding of what graphs were all about, thanks to friends who've helped me ^^ This year it's going to be busy and I hope I can cope. Which, till now, I think I'm doing quite fine. I've never felt so proud of myself. Last time when I was in 2B, I felt angry with myself because I always fail and disappoint my friends who wanted me to work hard. Now, I can complete most of my homework on time and I pay attention in class, so I feel I finally proved myself and I didnt let their efforts and concern go to waste (:

Okay, after school ate cup noodles at 7-11 with Vanessa, Weini and Regine. I laughed a lot ;D Then because I didnt want to get complained so I told them that we should be going. Vanessa suggested that we return to school and attempt our assignment. We walked it and saw Kh and Hanyu they all playing bball and we all started to guffaw out loud without reason, probably, we laughed too much, Lol

Chatted in canteen, VanessaT joined us. later went out with Jamie and VanessaT for dinner. I found out that rumours I heard were not true, its good that everything has been clarified and I think VanessaT is really a very nice and adorable person! VanessaC also, she's so funny and friendly :O

And anyway, dont be upset over the rumours, k? If people didnt clarify with you and give you a chance for you to explain to hear your side of the story and start spreading rumours, they cannot be trusted as a friend, so now you know who's true to you, and I didnt know my black face problem has gotten so serious till today, omg.

From today onwards, I'll try to have more eye contact to people I'm conversing with and try to put on a smile wherever I go so I wont seem unhappy or emo, hope I can achieve that (:

Oh yah, hope I didnt laugh too loudly like a bitch :X

deep thinking

2010-01-16T23:01:00.001+08:00

For the past few days, I've been thinking deeply about some matters,

Concerning my inferiority complex, it'd bugged me for years and now, I've finally thought this out. I'm not ugly, at least I have a face presentable to public and some people have told me that I am average or pretty, though it might be untrue, I'll just take it that your comments are sincere and you really meant it (:

And it is not true that everybody hates me, I still have friends who care about me and for those whom I thought disliked me, might've ignored me cause they dont know me. Some people showed attitude cause they might've misunderstood me or had a bad impression of me before knowing me better.

As for letting go of some people in life, I've finally made a decision. Even though I was reluctant, I'd learnt to let go by now. We really can't be too close, I'll just make myself miserable by putting up with what you always do to hurt me. Perhaps maintaining a distant relationship with you would be better. Thanks for everything you did last time but now, I'm going to put a stop to this and forget about you and everything we've had before, thanks

And I can't stand your behaviour and attitude, it's shameless and childish

Mum

2010-01-16T12:21:00.001+08:00

I hate her, FML

demi lovato rocks

2010-01-16T12:20:00.000+08:00

ZOMG, I FELL IN LOVE WITH DEMI LOVATO!!

Go listen to her songs now :O

Alone

2010-01-16T11:00:00.000+08:00

Everyday, I push open the heavy wooden door and find myself staring into the darkness, there is not a single soul. I pressed the light switch and yet again, I looked at the emptiness of this place, yes, this is where I live, it's cluttered with unwanted furniture, papers and other items we are reluctant to throw away.

This morning, I woke up, I walked out of my bedroom but no one was at home again, I realised I was alone, or actually, always alone. Yes, I tried to speak to you when you finally reached home but I only received your mindless reply, 'mm', so again, I knew we were separated, we had no relations all along, I was on my own in this place and nobody showed the slightest bit of concern,

thanks you know, thank you for bringing me here and not teach me, love me and care for me, yes, I would really appreciate it if you remembered my school is River Valley High School and I'm already fifteen this year, not twelve.

what is wrong now

2010-01-15T23:01:00.000+08:00

What's the point of writing, "Come ask for my blog url if you want it," I know I wrote that too last time but I think its really stupid now, come to think of it. And I was reminded because I just saw one of my friends do that

And to you, I finally know you're never really cared about me, you didnt even apologise and all you care about is yourself, yourself and yourself. When I'm down in the dumps, you dont make an effort to comfort, advise and care either, so why am I still friends with you?

And to you, I really can't get the message across so why dont you solve it yourself since you don't get what I mean?!

And thanks Sharon, Yanning, Amanda and Kh ^^

21

2010-01-15T22:25:00.004+08:00

STOP THINKING, OKAY I'M NOT UGLY, I'M NOT UGLY, I'M NOT UGLY,

but I still am,

20

2010-01-15T20:52:00.002+08:00

Mum told me to add Julia at Facebook today, why did she tell me to do that? I looked at her pictures and felt my heart twist inside, it twisted bitterly, I looked at my reflection in the mirror today and I was almost about to cry, I'm getting mad, I don't have the courage to attend service at church tmr, it's like, everyone is so good looking and they all dress up so well, but me, I look like an ugly, dull hag with cheap clothes D; God, please help me to be brave, or maybe, just stop thinking about such questions

disappointed

2010-01-15T20:48:00.001+08:00

I was really disappointed with you today, are friends really still there in times when you need them or do they remain indifferent about your troubles and not do anything to save you in distress? I really want to know the answer, I don't know if you're true to me, many advised me to stop being friends with you but I carried on because I thought it was strong, is it still the case? I don't know yet, but now it seems like the answer is surfacing, you say I've changed, but I think you were the one who changed, or maybe, I just didn't know you well enough..

18

2010-01-14T22:36:00.001+08:00

I have to get a life,

I've been viewing pictures of pretty girls at FB and afterwards, I'll feel more and more inferior, Why can't I look as pretty as them? Why can't I live my life like them? But these questions don't help at all, they just make me feel ashamed to face anyone. Can this stop? When will I stop?Perhaps one day, I'll stop. I hope that day is nearing soon..

17

2010-01-14T19:32:00.003+08:00

Sorry everyone my posts are getting jejune, I don't have anything to post about, my life is so dull and nothing special ever happens, so yah, thanks if you're still coming to read but probably I won't update frequently, in the meantime, catch up with me at Facebook cause I spend most of my time there ;D

16

2010-01-13T22:31:00.007+08:00

Aha, bet nobody'd ever came around here this week

I was really a bitch today in class and I really regretted it, I said stupid things and I attitude MrChoo, sorry 3I, I went too far today D;

15

2010-01-11T21:32:00.005+08:00

I don't wnna lose my friends, I hope I'm not annoying any of them, I want all of you to be still here with me, shit, I just thanked my friends, I thought I've changed my mindset but I still have an inferior complex, I don't know why I'm being so annoying now..

GraceFun regrets

2010-01-09T13:54:00.003+08:00

Read her latest post at gracefun.onsugar.com

She deleted all the attitude crap she wrote about herself,

She even admitted that she didnt try to fit in at first,

and she shouldn't have judged people too quickly,

Lol, she even regretted,

My,

I seriously don't know what to say :0

NPCC

2010-01-09T12:28:00.000+08:00

I CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE, FML

Stop whining

2010-01-09T01:00:00.002+08:00

Don't we all hate people who act big?

This post is for my classmate who acts big on her blog,

You see, I've been visiting a few blogs these days,

And I chanced upon this blog which belongs to one of my classmates,

who perpetually claims that she spends her time blogging,

Here she is,

scolding us on her blog,

Well, lets see what she has to say about us,

On the title of the blog, she says she loves everything,

except for most of the people in my class,

Carries on with lame shit everyday,

whining on and on about her class,

complaining about her classmates

and scolding two losers on her blog,

I seriously don't care who you're scolding,

but one of them is my friend,

IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY, YOU CAN COME FIND ME,

DONT ACT BIG ON YOUR BLOG

AS IF YOU GOT ATTITUDE,YA

AND DONT YOU DARE BLEAT ABOUT 3I,

CAUSE YOU DONT HAVE THE RIGHT

This girl allegedly claimed that she tried to fit in to 3I,

but epic failed,

Oh dear, I feel so sorry for you,

But I've never seen you trying to fit in,

did you open your mouth to speak?

did you give that kb face, enough to make someone who just walked by you slap you?

did you roll your eyes when we smiled?

Or maybe, you just didn't try hard enough,

Since you love your class so much, then dont enter our classroom,

You dont say we have cliques in our class,

IF YOU WANT TO BOND THE CLASS,

JOLLY WELL BE SOMEONE SOCIABLE

Dont say YAY when you dont have to see us,

You think we wanna see you?

Sorry, but we don't.

You not happy, come find me,

Angela Bong from your class.

No wonder you love blogging so much,

since you have no place to act big,

here is the place where you have complete sovereign

I'll continue to read your posts,

I'll see if you continue insulting us,

Bitch, get a life, seriously,

For the first few days, it might be tough

But one week has passed,

just accept reality and stop complaining,

and your face, just tear it down,

Grace Fun,

you're not someone fun

11

2010-01-08T19:17:00.001+08:00

Hi, it has been long since I updated,

Today me and Jiaxin had been chatting in the library

and my classmates are funny!

That day I thought only I heard Khoonhwee's comment,

I didnt know Jiaxin heard too!

It was about the clocks and Khoonhwee said

'Follow the grandfather clock."

Lollll, its really funny can,

Kelvin also very amusing,

I see his face I will laugh cause his actions and his face are certainly amusing,

We all think he looks like a lizard!

Ang Weixuan sprayed deodorant today, Lollllll

Erica was lost and I laughed at her when she tried to make us join her group, ahaha

I hope Mr Choo won't move out of the track and talk to us,

Miss Qiao too

10

2010-01-05T18:06:00.004+08:00

If I'm watching Bollywood movies, I'll always make sure I'll turn the volume louder

Anyway, currently I like, Phir Milenge Chalte Chalte, Khudaya Khair and Marjaani ;D

I found that I'm actually in E Lit, what should I do with the Geography textbook?

09

2010-01-04T18:36:00.001+08:00

I shut up when you scold me, even when I'm not fully wrong,

You think you're right every time so I shut up just not to make matters worse,

I try to salvage the situation, but there you are, always giving me shit,

I'm tired of quarreling with you, maybe we should just take a rest from each other.

And when I keep quiet, don't think I'm afraid of you and I'm admitting my mistakes,

bitch.

That bitch wants to argue with me over trivial matters,

and scolds me like a mad dog,

You're getting from bad to worse and if you dont stop now,

You have to see a psychologist.

Why do I have to see you always?

DONT THINK YOU'RE RIGHT IF I DONT SAY ANYTHING,

IT MEANS THAT EVERYTHING YOU SAID WAS UNREASONABLE.

AND PLEASE STOP ACTING IN FRONT OF PEOPLE,YOU BITCH

YOU HATE ME TO THE CORE

Bitch is my Mum

08

2010-01-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

Concerning Sharon's tag

I typed out my post in parts cause I was afraid it might look weird in long sentences like this and if there were lots of words lined together, everything would be in a mess and this might make the post confusing. So I decided to type them out in parts so it's easier to read. And if I had spelling or grammatical mistakes, I can amend them immediately.

Anyway, I've decided, if you all want me to write in full sentences like this, I will. So tell me if you'd prefer me to write in parts or full paragraphs, thanks :D Leave your answer on the tagboard.

07

2010-01-01T21:03:00.004+08:00

This post is about Michael Jackson,

Well, now I admire him (:

Of course, it's not because of his sudden fame after his death.

I know after MJ left, his songs were a hit among Malaysians.

And when his songs were all the rage, I haven't learnt to appreciate them yet.

Now, I think his songs have a good rhythm,

In downtempo songs, he's voice is soothing

and tranquil, you know, like its pure and serene.

In songs with a pulsating beat, his voice pauses with the beat.

And in fast songs, you can feel the strength of his voice.

Anyway, sorry Michael Jackson, I thought that you were a scary freak,

maybe you cannot hear what I'm saying now, but I really think you're a nice guy.

My favourites from MJ,

Man in the Mirror,

Billie Jean,

Remember the Time.

Bye

And I fell in love with his songs, when I was staying in Malaysia.

06

2010-01-01T14:05:00.009+08:00

I viewed the photos of our trip just now, at Sharon's blog.

The pictures were mementos of our trip, they can be kept as souvenirs in memory of our night,

Thanks Sharon, for not flaring up,

If it was last time, you might've gotten angrier.

Thanks Regine and Therena, we had lots of fun!

And in the whole, It was pleasant! ;D

Sorry for screwing things up, at the start and at the end D;

Here are a few songs I've been listening to, for this week,

So Happy I Could Die-Lady Gaga

Monster -Lady Gaga

Here We Go Again -Lady Gaga feat. Pixie Lott

Here We Go Again -Demi Lovato

05

2009-12-31T23:37:00.003+08:00

Oh my, I have really good news to break,

Today, I was telling Sharon about my Mum,

Mum got two air tickets to Korea from the lucky draw,

And she's gnna buy another one for me.

And and, we can choose which season we want to visit.

I must really thank God for blessing me. Talk about being a good christian,

For many years, I've missed church.

Yet God helped me in problems and even blessed me!

My passport is going to expire in one month's time,

So, I'm not sure if my stamp to Korea will be in my old or new passport.

I'm going to take many pictures there!!

And yesterday my Mum was telling me about the first prize of the lucky draw, which is two tickets to Korea.

I posed about it but Mum asked me to shut up cause Dad needed to sleep, so I shut up about it.

I was asking who will go if she really got the prize, cause there were only two tickets.

Thanks Regine, Sharon and Therena for making my day!

We really had fun shopping and chatting!

And thanks to Minkuan, Amanda, Joey, Sharon and Amanda for the Peko and Poko sweets!

I loved them& the boxes! :D

And and and,

you know my Mum got a pile of chocolates.

OMGOMGOMG

Of course, I'll be sharing them with my friends,

so till then, Sayounara!

And, my mum got a brownie with a substantial size,

I cant wait to devour it!

A fun night with friends, and a trip to Korea :)

Reminds me of the song,

"This could be the start of something new,

It feels so right, to be here with you, oh,"

Yiheng is an awesome friend!

OMGOMG, I'm in raptures,

I'm feeling euphoric.

I'm finally travelling overseas ;D

A pipe dream

2009-12-31T12:32:00.003+08:00

Clinging onto something that won't be yours,

You might as well let go,

since it isn't yours in the first place

and won't be yours.

Why wait till that person

feel disgusted when he thinks of you?

Might as well let the relationship

stay neutral,

and keep a distance from each other.

Make yourself forget him,

so you wont keep on

hoping and hoping that he'll treat you

in a different manner.

Hope against hope

that he'll like you.

And when he does something to hurt you,

it'll make you cry.

For example,

Not replying to your messages,

Stop speaking to you

and more.

Everything will just be a pipe dream.

03

2009-12-30T14:52:00.001+08:00

Thanks Sharon for the mystery box trick! ;D
And for the first preview of next Monday's releases (:
I like glow-in- the-dark items :)
Those who are active players in Pet Society,
do you like them too?

I've been decorating a little of my room,
earning pawpoints
and finishing the last few pages of
Salem Falls.
I'm waiting for my King Burger,
can't wait to cook
Festive Yule Log,
Festive Pudding
and Strawberry Shortcake! :O
And I want to finish my sticker collections~

I havent found my Maths Holiday WS
and I left my newspaper articles at my aunt's house.
The X'mas essay I'll do during weekend
and the book review will be pushed till later
when I decide on a suitable book

Continuing with more updates of today later..

Went out with Therena and Regine today

And they came to my house

Regine left shortly after

She's a maple addict zz

And after that Therena went into my room

We had a good laugh at class photos, Lol!!

We were guffawing and rolling about

but not on the floor,

but instead on my bed.

I can't wait for tmr,

going out with Sharon, Regine and Therena! ;D

Don't you ever feel ashamed?

Are you even chagrined when your actions are being mocked at?

I have my Maths WS now!

Ok, I borrowed from Therena and photocopied a copy for myself (:

I'm going to start on my hw

and now coming up,

are my resolutions for the new year ahead! ^^

New Year Resolutions

Personal

-Cherish my family and friends

-Pay attention and complete homework

-Have self-confidence

-Read more books

-Improvement in usage of vocab

-Stop being an absent-minded person and take good care of my belongings

Religious

-Receive the holy spirit

-Keep the Sabbath Day holy

-Glorify God in my actions

I hope I will manage to do everything as listed above.

02

2009-12-29T15:13:00.001+08:00

This is my second post.

Sorry for the tagboard problem. I'll fix it by tmr, I promise.

I was viewing some pictures and I saw Shiko's comments

I laughed out loud after reading

They're really hilarious

Thanks to Sharon, I dont have to spend money on mystery boxes and getting unwanted crap

ever again! :D Thanks

And the good news is,

I found my phone

It ended up in my granny's bag, lol.

I miss her.

01

2009-12-29T05:30:00.001+08:00

I'm back (:
I haven't done my holiday homework, but I'm starting today.
I'm a little troubled for the Christmas essay because I don't ever celebrate Christmas due to some reasons.
And I need some help for my Maths..

**

I've re-opened by blog.
I'd like to apologise to all my friends for my shameful behaviour this year.
Sorry,
and I've changed the blogskin,
I don't care about the fact that many people have used it before me,
so long as I like it.

A fresh start to my blog,
I promise readers that I will never ever write crap posts anymore.
And not even about my Mum.

Now I'm searching for songs I've missed during the holidays
Somehow, Lady Gaga's latest album was quite disappointing

I lost my phone so I can't receive well-wishing messages from my friends this year :(
And I was chided.
I'm so angry with myself :(

The icon will be changed soon
And I decided to number my posts so I can keep track