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from scratch
I stared at the bleak prospect of my future with glassy eyes, crestfallen; I had returned with empty hands. A pall of desolation hung in the air, sitting there, wretched and forsaken to solitude, cloistered apart from the buzz of people, confined in my world. Taking a deep breath, I stepped out, plummeting into the pitch-dark trench, diving into sorrow. I have forgotten all about my troubles from time immemorial, and now, it had begun again, starting from scratch.

unhappy
Hello, I typed out this post about my feelings but fucking Blogger says there's sth wrong with my codes. So, I decided to retype my post short. I will not be blogging for a week so don't bother checking my blog for updates. I miss my grandmother and my family in Malaysia and so I couldn't help but cry when I called her just now. She understands me and always tries to help me. I love my family and I bet I won't love anyone else more than them. I don't want to stay in the house with D alone. I want M to come back from her trip soon though I hate her. I am not motivated to study. I am in no mood to upload CNY pictures. I feel like I'm wasting time in RVHS

joke
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zUpbrU4ydw

WATCH THIS NOW and see how no life and dumb some Malaysians can be zz
Still named himself Bobby Gaga HAHAA
Anyway this guy is a joke, LOLL!!!! Jiaxin told me the link, she got it from Jiaqi
Its the CNY song SCs used, haha ^^

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Today sucked. I nearly went mad looking for Jiaxin and asking around for news of her, but nobody was bothered zz. Anyway, I skipped the whole programme, prolly stayed there for approx 15 minutes at most, haha. Then went up to classroom with Nicole and clique and Hubert and Brandon. They played the truth and dare game but I wasn't really intrigued by it cause I don't really like these games. Walked around school searching for Jiaxin before and after the programme but to no avail. 

I must admit that I felt quite sad and disappointed when I walked to Jurong Point alone. I couldn't help but check my phone for a thousand times. But I'm not angry, it's true. We still can go out next time what. And I think Weini and Yanning are nice for asking me along to pool ^^ Felt touched <:

Anyway thank you Yanning, Michele, Madeleine and Ken for Vday presents ^^ I appreciated your thoughts, not forgetting Therena's yummy baked muffin which was awesome though it was a little too sweet. I painted my nails light pink for CNY, haha, its the first time I painted my nails <:

And, today before I reach school this morning, this small cluster of Sec Two girls were talking real loudly, in the ahlian accent. One girl had this long chained metal necklace with locks and keys hung on her neck and she wore a wrist watch which was also hung loosely(almost gnna slide off her arm), zz, and the design was ah-ma. Then she wore a pasar malam hotpink top with halterneck inside.

Then went to school saw someone weak black stockings, haha. Desperate much == Felt like laughing cause I'm not as despo as them and won't be, haha ^^ Ok, I'm anticipating for tmr <: Too bad there's no internet connection there, might post some pictures aft CNY, this year, I realise I don't miss my family as much alr..

PS I now have five skirts, never thought of wearing skirts in my life last year, AHAHAHA!! <:

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Jiaqi and Hubert

I found out aft AEM what Jiaqi said about me to Regine. He still pretended to be nice to me though he told her I was a fish face. I don't know who else he said that too, but I'm sure he's not joking since he didn't tell me and told it to someone else. I admit I'd eaten his sweets but that was because many people took his sweets too. He then hinted that 'some people' were selfish and greedy to take his sweets, implying me so I paid him one dollar, if its not enough he could've told me but he actually told me he wasn't referring to me and that I didn't need to pay him back

I also felt hurt by what Hubert said about me and that affected my expository essay. I thought about why and what he said throughout the test and I just couldn't concentrate on sorting out my ideas. I did laugh at him but I didn't say he was ugly. He really had gay actions and expressions so when Jiaqi said sth about him, I laughed. Then he told me to stop laughing and said, "You also not very chio what." I didn't even say I was very chio to him, what fuck.

And once, before I could finish my sentence, he told me that his ex was definitely chioer than me, never said I was chioer than her anyway. He said ugliest girl from Jurongville would look way better than us. We never compared ourselves to them anyway.

PS Jiaqi doesn't feel sorry at all. Nobody can understand what I'm feeling now.

Yip Jia Qi walao, chill man. it was a joke. sorry you couldn't take it.
17 minutes ago ·  ·  · See Wall-to-Wall
Angela Bong
Angela Bong 
YIP JIAQI, YOU APOLOGISED FOR ME NOT BEING ABLE TO TAKE YOUR 'JOKE' AND WHATS WITH YOUR WALAU, YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO TELL ME TO CHILL WHEN YOU WERE THE ONE WHO DISSED ME
7 minutes ago · 
Angela Bong
Angela Bong 
AND IF IT REALLY WAS MEANT AS A JOKE WHY DID YOU TELL REGINE INSTEAD OF TELLING ME? YOU WERE OBVIOUSLY INSULTING ME

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I feel so upset about my mother now, but I want to explain some things I heard..

1)I'm trying to attract attention by making up untrue lies about my mother

Yes, it all sounds so fiction, but I can tell you its true

2)My blog is boring because it's all about my mother

Yes I agree with that, but it's your choice whether or not you want to read my rant about Mum. I know its boring and I already expected my blog to have no readers at all and so, I write here sometimes because there would be nobody to listen if I really needed to rant. I don't need anyone to understand, I just wanna vent out somewhere. I don't have a Mum who waits for you at home with a smile, I'm not like you

3)My blog is not as interesting as Sharon or Therena's blog

I don't know why you're comparing my blog to my friends' blog. If you think their blogs are interesting, go ahead and read them, but I don't think there's a need for comparison. And why would my blog be entertaining to you, I'm not your entertainer and fyi, this blog was just created as a portal to my unhappiness

4)I'm scary and critical

Are you sure you understand me that well? Probably if you go around asking one of my close friends, I'm sure they would give you a different answer

Anyway, I'm feeling unhappy now because of my family and what Shuying said today. Continued laughing through the day after feeling hurt by what people commented about me..

Mad
I left my orange juice outside a while then Dad poured it away, after that still got scolded by him when I only asked where it went, zz, I study and he came out to scold me again, sorry lor rich kia, you think whole world as rich as you and so free as you to throw things away without asking? This shows how he doesn't want to talk to me, what fuck, I'm so angry and upset now, why can't he just ask me or talk to me directly?! He want ask me if I want eat dinner he also tells M to ask me, why can't he just ask me himself? Birthday present also like that, want go out or not like that like we're really strangers

And he still dare say he was picking up my ends, ZZZ

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Tutored my cousins, got ten dollars only zz
Anyway, met some 2C people, Paul Chien and Alicia and Ken Yoon at Safra, dunno why they are there though. Some were at BBQ pits and some at bball court. And I was wearing one of my stupid outfits, not glamorous at all == Regretted shouting at Shoufong and Jamie, really dumb, UHH So angry with myself now >: 

Anyway ate Jap cuisine and most of them was scallop-based HAHA my dear hotate <: Its named Nihotate sushi because 'ni' in Japanese is two so its 'two scallops' haha, I ate two nihotate sushis, five slices of hotate pizza, hotate pasta and hotate rice which is homemade. M bought Japanese dried food, three packs cost more than forty zz And the seaweed hotate soup is quite bland the hotate strips also >:

I'm worried for my Chemistry test >:

dizzy
I feel dizzy when I
Look down from heights
In a lift
In a car
Ate or drank peppermint stuff
Wake up in the morning
Drank something cold
Not enough sleep
People are looking at me
After swimming
After drinking milk tea
and more

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Today was fairly pleasant even though there was some unhappiness. I categorised events into three sections,

Happy

Me and Shuying had fun in class with me being the joke of the day
Was able to teach Shuying Math
Was not as nervous when I talk to guys
Awx seems to be a nice person
Handed in my AEM assignments on time
Ran about three rounds with Jx
Nicole is nice
Understood a little about refraction
Starting to develop passion in Elit
Liked Elit lesson
Cheered up after crying a little

Neutral

Asked Erica about her life story
Did something silly in front of people, actually trying to burn some calories
Awx told me to relax
2.4 timing deproved
Don't know if I'm changing class next year
Did not attend CCA because it was a full-u act, guilty though
Hubert said my voice didnt sound like a guy
Many people like Tonight recently

Unhappy

Was insulted by Jiaqi
Scolded Jiaqi and he was shameless enough to not care
Memorised information about birds, though I realised I could not take part in CIP because of church
I'm worried for my tests
Felt I'm working hard and I haven't seen the fruit of my labour
Don't understand Physics
Hanyu said I should date Awx
I don't like Ruyan

PS Something happened and I'm happy

PPS Something happened and I'm unhappy

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I just blocked Kh on msn cause I acc hit him there :O I'm feeling so disgusted now I'm about to cry >: Anyway, I went to Jurong Point with Jiaxin and we chatted and walked around aimlessly, Lol And Hubert said I'm uglier than his ex, gosh. And Hanyu nodded I think. Anyway, I failed my Math, such a loser huh. I laid my head on the table about to cry, cause I think I'm working hard for nothing and have never achieved anything in life. But after I thought about it, I decided to work harder than cry, I know I can do it ^^ Yay! (though I know I'll be failing my chemistry and physics paper) Jiayou Angela <:

pretending
Today I played with Shuying during Math lesson, we were pretending that we wanted to slit ourselves then we had a competition to see who cried first, I didn't cry cause I was holding back my tears, I don't want anybody to think I'm weird and I really wanted to cry >:

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Qi zi de you huo is making me laugh! All the characters are funny, plus the plot and what they say and Ninuo is a funny name. And Ninuo call his mother then the granny say want xiu li him Lol and more things are funnier LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL Chatted with Sharon about what happened, aha :D

chio cousins
Was deleting some pictures and came across some photos I took of my cousins during the holidays, here they are the two pretty girls :>



Shanise, she's chioer in real life, looks Malay

Denise, looks a little caucasian in real life

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I don't wear the same clothes as my friends, twits like a fucktard, hooks up with a guy and breaks with him 1 day later lying about how he two-timed me and then act emo and slit my wrists and take picture to post on my blog to make people comment about useless shits, and takes pictures of me smiling and giving the peace sign and then add a stupid caption at the bottom saying how much I love my boyf or how much I miss him or Why did he have to hurt me etc. OMG... I feel disgusted even as I am typing out this post man. WHAT IS WRONG WITH SINGAPOREANS?! Why so many people want to become ahbengs/ahlians and think that it's cool huh?!!!Argh I really don't know what to say. Wearing skinnies, weird makeups,layering and rebonding hair, smoking, etc

Adapted from suicidesunda-y.blogspot.com

This is so true zz

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Hello, I'm here to tell you a got a shock when I went to NCO Raymeo's blog. Yah, Kelly Clarkson's song, it just thundered suddenly zz

Anyway a series of very hilarious events continued to take place one after another, LOL during recess and dance. And Ruyan is so rude today, he called us 'eh' and 'hello'. We have a name for you to address us, not eh, who you think you are, you want eh go eh your mother and I scolded him but this shameless bitch still pretended he didnt hear me scolding him and ignored me. This made me explode when he again said eh,eh,hello. Like wtf, he said that like how many times despite me nicely telling him not to call us that.

Yes Ruyan, I know you were really nice to coordinate the dance for us but why are you losing your patience when we couldn't get what you mean? We never force you to be the dance coordinator in case you dont know, and why were you scolding me when I should be the one to lose my patience- this was him scolding us when we were a little slow in clearing out a space for him to dance >: Anyway, that was really bad of him and I admit that Jiaqi is better than him cause he never said sorry

I'm starting to dislike Khoonhwee too

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Haha, so many people are reading Sharon's blog nowadays. Hope they don't come to my blog :<
This is a random post, haha. The petling at Pet Society scared me when it jumped onto Weiwei :O, its just damn freaky and fugly, gosh

quiz
1. Do you think you're attractive?

No, I don't. I think I look average compared to other girls in my school and I'm not the type guys are interested in, Lol. And I think I don't have inner beauty, not knowledgeable and refined enough :>

2. Do you find guys attractive?

Yes I do, I'm straight though I like looking at pretty girls. I'm trying to stop myself, I removed them from friends at FB, (regretted though)

3. What is your definition of shameless?

I think shameless is a trait in people who think they possess a certain quality when they actually don't

4. What is the prerequisite your boyfriend must equip?

I don't have one, I think I'll be single in RV. Anyway, he should love me deeply

5. Which guy friend do you dislike the most, why?

Yip Jia Qi, he is most inconsiderate, rude, uncivilised, dumb, shameless, violent, uncaring, unfeeling, not chivalrous at all and doesn't learn from his mistakes, much less apologise for them >O

6. Do you like doing homework?

I may be slipshod in work, but once I start working on it, I complete it to my ability

7. Are you happy with your current results?

Not really, I'm trying hard to improve my GPA now ^^ I hope I'll be able to achieve my target GPA :>

8. What are you most unhappy with? (Max 3)

1-I totally abhor people who don't ever admit they are in the wrong and even so, fail to even apologise to the people they offend, I dislike such behaviour because we may commit mistakes in life, but we must learn to accept other people's comments and advice and change ourselves, so that we will stop committing the same mistake again. We should really learn to reflect on ourselves

2-People who think they're in the right. This is quite similar to the first point but its still rather different. I detest people who come up and tell me you're wrong here and there when they're not better off themselves. And they come bossing you around and whatever you say they think is crap cause they think they're knowledgeable so everybody should listen to what they say. Their thinking is ideal and should be followed by everyone, yada yada

There are other kinds of people I dislike but they all fall under the same ranking, haha

9. Do you like cosplayers?

I dislike them ttm, they are wasting their money on costumes and they look far different from the ideal character like please, no life people who imagine they are anime characters or want to be any particular character in the manga/anime plot

10. Do you like your blog?

No, its so boring that I'm wasting time on this quiz though it doesn't help to make my blog more compelling

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Happy Birthday Jiaxin! You've been a great friend in the past month! :> I hope we can be good friends in years to come, sorry haven't buy birthday present for you :< 

I got A for my HSK exam, 375 points, I'm satisfied with my results because firstly, I didnt read a chinese book last year, until the End-of-Years were over then I read two with shallow language and plot. Also, I didn't really work hard for my Chinese, I did not pay attention during lessons and handed in slapdash work, not including homework I wasn't bothered to complete. However, I failed by half a mark for my LA compre :<
I had to copy the questions of Chemistry practical cause I didnt know must do and so, failed to complete on time. So sian, still have to complete stupid tasks like this :< Had fun with them all, nice people they are ^^ And they are really hilarious!! :>