Yesterday, my aunt asked me out also. Probably because she knew I was unhappy with her, seems like ignoring them all for three days really worked. Mum treats me better, but I ignore her cause I won't trust her anymore, dunno what she's up to the next moment. And I haven't forgiven them both, my aunt and my mum, so I spent the weekend at home playing Pet Society and sleeping. This feeling's weird though, cause every friday I'll stay overnight at my aunt's house and Saturday, attend church service and Sunday, I'll go out with them. It'd been a continuous routine that hadn't changed for years. And I haven't called my grandmother for three weeks, seems like I'm not so attached to them alr.

This might be a good thing. For all these years, I've been clinging onto them like an idiot, thinking that we could make the best family. So, in the end, I end up upset when they do things to hurt me. I can only say I've been an idiot for years and I can only wallow in misery for wasting time with them. So what if I love them so much, I can't expect them to reciprocate the same to me.

PS Dad bought lots of tidbits for me, but they were all goodies he thought were nice at his age, eg, haw candy balls, sugary gummies, orange carbonated water, sour plums in paper packaging, I really appreciate his thought, I was touched even, though I didnt really want to eat them. Mum cooked one of her bland soups, but I have no idea whether she really meant it.