I write what is true, but do you believe?

If you dont trust me enough to know I'm telling the truth, then you can leave now because I'm going to say things that you might deem as lies, today was a really bad day for me. Ok, I am very sad now and I dont know how to continue. Yes, I seem strong, I seem brave, I seem happy, but are you sure this is the real me you see everyday? Well, you might be thinking 'Lol, is she trying to act pitiful and wait for someone to ask her what happened?' This might be flashing across your mind, but this would be how you feel when everything in your life is right, nothing'd ever gone wrong. But have you considered what I'm going through now, someone who has achieved nothing in life, has no one there to care for her and a person who doesnt have someone to confide in? I will end here because I cant stop crying as I'm writing this, yes, I'm acting pitiful again, sorry